I am currently eleven days into my quarantine in Vancouver, Canada. It’s been exciting, exhausting, overwhelming, and scary. There is something about crossing oceans and knowing you aren’t going home in a very long time to put things into perspective. All of a sudden, I find myself second-guessing every decision, whacking my brain trying to figure out what I am going to and how I am going to find myself in this new place.
If there is one thing I know for sure is that I needed this move. I needed to make this drastic move across oceans to find who I am, where my passions lie, and what I want to do as I move into the next phase of my life.
At home, being in South Africa, I was very comfortable. I always had good jobs, surrounded by family that would support me no matter what, and while I am incredibly thankful for this and I know I am so blessed, I knew deep down that I needed a drastic change. Simply finding a new career, new home, or new passion in South Africa was not going to cut it. So, here I am in Vancouver, Canada, in quarantine trying to understand what I want for myself and how I can achieve it.
It’s not going to be easy. I know that’s for sure. I can feel it, but I have more excitement than fear. I am excited for the unknown, the possibilities, the new and improved, and I am excited to find myself and work on myself even more than I did in South Africa. Being unemployed since coming to Canada because my husband was the one who received a job offer has forced me to spend time alone and do some intense thinking. I have found myself waking up at 3 am, sitting outside wondering about what is to come, but one thing I know for sure is that I need to put in the work, and it’s going to take some hard work.
With dread, I have been applying for work simply because I know it’s what should be done, but deep down, a part of me wants to take some time to do my own thing. Instead of putting in eight hours for a company, I would love to put eight hours into my own business. Imagine what could happen if I put everything into my own business instead of someone else’s business.
For anyone wanting to make the move, live abroad, challenge the unknown, and completely step out of their comfort zone in the biggest way possible, I say do it. You will feel unstable for a while, and you will feel worried and scared for quite some time, but these feels do not override the excitement of knowing something good is around the corner. Something exciting is around the corner, and sometimes you need that big push to make your dreams, passions and desires a reality.